what is my special?in fact...

what is my special?in fact,it is the queastion that only i myself can answerit.but i lose myself in details.for example,i like to study the children'behavior,but i am afraid that the study sometimes drive a person crazy. another example,it seems that i like the marketing,but i have no quick response to the economic situation in my life.the third example is that while i have working experience,my practice skills are not as very well as they should be;sometimes,i think what my working experience is not the experience but the working time;